UKI RRF

Ah!

uki — Tue, 23 Aug 2011 16:36:46 +0000

Seriously, I really hate that word said from your mouth
We’ve promised to never say it
But you broke it
And if you know
Everytime you say that
My heart is so broken
And I always get sick
Just right now
I’m getting asthma
But actually I know that’s because my faults too
I hope you’ll never it again
Forever
I’ve been loving you with all my soul
So please respect it

She

uki — Wed, 20 Jul 2011 01:20:47 +0000

She’s so beautiful
She’s sweet
She’s mature
And she’s you

A Coincidence

uki — Sun, 12 Dec 2010 04:44:28 +0000

Okay, setelah lama vakum nulis blog, sekarang aku nyoba nulis lagi, dan saat ini aku pengen cerita tentang suatu hal telah membuat aku beda, beda dari sebelumnya, dan karena ini aku sekarang punya kehidupan yang baru, lebih baik tentunya.

Well, I’ll start. It was started around 4 months ago. My friend, Rio, usually called Ncut, ask me to be active in Twitter again. Then I start twitting again. Yet, it was surprising when I opened my profile my username was ukkiy. Hahahaha, it is such a cute name I think, and my followers mostly laughed and gave me comments by replying. Moreover, another surprising thing was my avatar, it showed the picture of my ex. girlfriend and I.

However, that is not the story I wanna tell you. This story is about how I met someone special in my life, someone who always fill my soul until now, and I wish it would be forever.

Someday, when I was twitting, I found her name, I actually ever knew and saw her, because she is my peer in university. Then I followed her, then she followed me back, and we started talking and we enjoyed it. We were getting closer when we often shared about our problems each other, and fortunately I always got nice sollutions from her, and she was also. We enjoyed our time when we were together and could talk about anything, cheer up each other, and laughed together.

After three weeks, I felt something wrong happened with my heart, I thought that I consider her not only as a sharing partner, but more than that. I was so confused at that time, I thought that feeling is impossible, there are some factors that force me to be realistic, but I could not against that strong feeling. First, at that time she was in Jakarta and I was in Yogyakarta, and we did not know well each other, we just ever met but we never remebered it, so we considered we even never met before. Second, she is 3.5 years old older than me. Third, at that time she was looking for job in Jakarta, so it is possible that we will have long distance relationship. We thought that it would not work.

I did not know why, someday, she suddenly doubted if we will have a relationship, but actually I knew that she felt the same with me. Then, I tried to chase her, I called her to convince her that I really love her and I am serious with her.

After a long conversation, I could convince her, and she believed in me, and that time we agreed to have a relationship. This is the point for my new life, and I am happy through my days with her.

It was on September 24, 2010. We almost through 3 months together. Some problems occur, but we could through them well together. I realize that she always try to understand me better, and so do I.

Met you, that was a coincidence that I will never regret, even though I know it had been directed by Lord. Thank God for believing in me to take care of her. I promise I will always love her.

what a boring statistics class in this morning!

uki — Fri, 22 Oct 2010 01:03:32 +0000

What the hell boring class is this? The lecturer seems have his own world, he explains without considering whether the students understand, and he keeps continuing the explanation, not stop it, and ask whether the students understand.
I also look at my classmates, and most of them are bored also, just few of them listening to the lecturer.
I think this is the most boring lecture in this semester, but this lecture is very useful while i’m doing thesis. Yet, i don’t understand a lot the materials given.
Yap i think i’ve to strenghten my motivation in order to get the points in materials given, though this is the most boring lecture.

My Morphine

uki — Wed, 13 Oct 2010 14:29:54 +0000

At the first time
You became a bandage
You covered my pain
‘Till it was healed

However
Now you become a drug
My morphine
I need you everytime
And I can’t lose you
You always make me desiring more when I taste you

You Are My Autumn

uki — Wed, 13 Oct 2010 14:21:09 +0000

Everything changes when you come
My summer has gone
And my autumn comes

You are my autumn
Save me from summer
When I feel so hot
So tired
Then you come
Bring down all my pain and burdens

Thank you, honey

room sweet room

uki — Sat, 28 Aug 2010 04:22:08 +0000

Lagi-lagi, menghabiskan seharian penuh di rumah di bulan puasa ini, spesifiknya di atas kasur kamarku. Yap, nothing to do, so bored!
I just remember about someone I admire, she’s not a stranger for me, and so do I. So actually we already know each other, but the problem is she never realize that I admire her
This afternoon, my colleages and I will hold fasting-break at sawah resto, and I hope she will come to this event. I’ve sent her sms last night, but my messages were not delivered, even I’ve sent twice. Hmm maybe this is not my luck, semesta sedang gak berpihak ma aku. Well, it’s okay, maybe next time with different chance.
Yak, aku baru sadar kalo aku harus nyelesein tugas accounting theoryku buat summarize a lot of pages into 5 pages of folio paper handwriting
Emang dosen yang satu ini rada freak, jaman modern gini masih aja suruh nulis tangan. Hmm whatever lah. Dulu aku juga pernah ambil makul yang berbeda dan dapet dosen ini, alhasil aku cuma dapet b/c, tapi aku langsung ngulang sih di semester pendek, dan aku dapet a.
Selain itu, sebenernya aku harus nyuci karena cucianku dah numpuk banyak banget. Tapi sayang, air habis dan listrik lagi mati. Sial banget nih PLN matiin listrik di saat gak tepat. Keknya emang dah saatnya PLN ganti nama jadi perusahaan lilin negara.
Oke deh, dengan pikiranku yang makin kacau ini, semoga semuanya cepet selesai. Damn, nahan rasa itu gak enak.

Wanna taste that peanut butter which has been lost

uki — Fri, 27 Aug 2010 22:34:46 +0000

Ini adalah sebuah pemikiranku setelah membaca sebuah buku dari pengarang favoritku (you may guess, maybe you know him). Yak, berbicara tentang cinta. Seseorang mengatakan “nothing takes the flavor out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love”. Ini adalah quotation favoritku, yang berarti tak ada sesuatupun yang membuat rasa selai kacang menjadi hambar kecuali cinta yang gak terbalas. Yaa, I acknowledge that, I even feel that. mungkin kalau dibahasaindonesiakan, cinta emang bisa ngubah rasa tahi jadi coklat, tapi cinta yang gak terbalas ngubah rasa coklat jadi tahi
Mungkin sudah kerap terjadi, kita mengagumi seseorang namun hanya secara diam-diam, no one knows, even her, like just what I face right know.
Menurutku, cinta itu ibarat kentut. Kenapa? Soalnya kalo ditahan terasa sakit, tapi kalo dikeluarin juga malu-maluin. Dammit!
Susah banget nahan rasa yang namanya kangen, bikin gak tenang, tapi juga nyenengin (gimana coba?).
Yaa, saat ini aku cuma sedang mencari cara aja biar dia tahu. Emang agak susah sih, apalagi dia dah punya. Sebenernya gak mungkin juga ganggu rumah tangga orang, takutnya ntar berimbas balik juga. Hmm I’m so confused and just stuck in this. Well, mungkin cuma membiarkan waktu ngapus semua rasa aja sampe akhirnya semua cuma jadi impian belaka.

Rain

uki — Sun, 16 May 2010 15:38:31 +0000

That rain reminds me about you

I feel you in every water falls

I really need you so

When I cannot close my eyes tonight

When the temperature is so cold like this

There’s just you in my mind now

I miss you so much

Though your heart is not mine

And though you never think about my feeling

Taman Surga Hatiku

uki — Mon, 10 May 2010 15:33:58 +0000

Di senja jingga yang sunyi

Di malam gelap yang mencekam

Hatiku mengharu biru mengingat dirimu

Hanya ada keindahanmu dalam pikiranku

Setiap dzikirku yang teringat adalah wajahmu

Dalam mimpiku yang menemani hanya jiwamu

Dalam munajatku kau menjadi tujuanku

Dan setiap detik yang berlalu adalah nafasmu

Biarkan sejarah menuliskan dengan tinta emasnya

Di dalam hatiku akan kekaguman yang abadi

Berharap kisah cinta kita tak terkikis oleh badai waktu

Sebuah kisah cinta yang paling menggetarkan hati

originally quoted from http://ukky.wordpress.com/2009/04/12/90/